Nilagay na ni kulas sa kahapon ang ala-ala ni Lydia. Maingat niyang itinabi ang mga liham nito na paulit-ulit pa rin niyang binabasa. Mahirap man tangapin inamin na rin niya na wala siyang magagawa. Ayaw na niyang linlangin ang kanyang sarili. Sinuko na niya ang pangarap na magkikita pa silang muli.
Letter excerpts:
From one of her early letters:
Dearest Tamsi,
Papa lessoned me about my feelings for you. He said that I’m silly girl and must think about my future. Study hard, Lydia, papa said. Forget this boy! It’s only puppy love. How can papa say that? He does not even know you…
I cry all the time thinking of you. I miss you soooo much, my tamsi. I love you very, very much.
I’m so sorry I pinch you many, many times because I love u soooo much my tamsi… Maybe you will find another Lydia because I'm far away from you. Please don’t exchange me for Tina. I know she likes you. Tina wants to bf you from me. Bruha naman talaga yan si Tina. Lagi lang alembong!!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrr……….
Tamsi ko, …
Thank you for the card. I put it under my pillow. Like you said, you also put my card I sent you under your pillow. Nag mantsa na nga tinta sa kakakiss ko, tee hee!
...I love the gumamela petals from your mom’s garden. Medyo fresh pa nga. Remember ko the first kiss sa garden… Remember mo din ba? Hoy, hala ka diyan pag di mo remember!
Write me everyday, tamsi ko. LLK!
Love you forever,
Ning
After a few months, souring notes:
Dear K,
... So sorry you find my letters cold. Di naman cold talaga. Your's naman is like angry. What is my fault? There is no one. Maybe some boy, my brothers friend, likes me, but it's okay. How about you? Nora writes to me saying ...
...It's okay, if you don't like to write me anymore. Maybe you have a new gf. IT'S OK. BE HAPi KA DIYAN!
Hmp,
L
Her last letter in response to Kulas's agreement for a break. Actually, she hinted a break, which kulas did not like, but thought sensible. Yung last lines na lang i-share ko dahil daming hinanakit ang nilalaman. Marahil sa kawalang pag-asa, may alitan sila na wala namang katuturan. Mga hinayang sa mga bagay na wala naman silang kinalaman o magagawa.
Dearest Tamsi,
… I will always have you in my heart. I will never forget you. You will always be my tamsi.
Please don’t forget me too.
Love always,
Ning
P.S.
keep ko letters mo.